If everything goes like this continuosly, its better for me to be a crazy woman.
I'm stuck. I cannot make any decision anymore. I'm really stuck.
If I may scream loudly, I will scream as loud as I can.
How can I put the hard feelings aside?
Problems coming one by one. My brain is tried of thinking.
What should I do next?
Sampai hati kau buat aku gini
I am sorry if my words on the previous post may hurt you.
It's just I wanna have my own turn to express everything out.
I am Sorry.
If I may scream out, I have already did that long time ago.
You should know who you are.
Two days ago, went out w Ina.
It was a last minute plan. Meet her at 63 bus.
And go to bugis, cityhall, PS, and fullerton.
To PS, we went eat ben and jerry. Than to Fullerton to meet Abang.
And home by 8(:
I dont know whether to move on or not to move on. Everything seems complicated to me. It is hard to decide. And now, I dont know what and who to find so that I can express out all my screams and feelings. I feel like loosing a friend. I dont care. I dont want that person anymore. Seems nothing and useless to me. I've lost one is enough but now, I wanna lost another one. I cannot take it anymore. I've delete the contact from my phone and next, the email address. To those, who think that Imma cheerful person, dont think it is easy to be me. Being cheerful is easy but the problems still running through my head. They say Imma got kind of friend but, sometimes I am sick and tired of being good and be a ear to listen the problems. I repeat the same thing, but nothing change. It is becoming more worst not more better. Next up, anything happend, I dont wanna be the ear to listen again. The story is the same and I have to keep saying the same thing. Wanna change but I cant see it is changing. I'm not saying about one or two person. But to everyone. By the time next year, I am sorry if I dont mix with the usual friends, because I wanna study. I am scared of that Huge Exam. Thank you very very much for reading this friends.
Early in the morning, I receive message from adeq. Stated that Sakai's body have found. I woke up, bath and go to the funeral. I was alone at his house since all my friends have not arrived yet. His body come back home at around 11+ after I have met Iya. After I heard the real true story actually what had happend, I felt pity. I dont get a single chance to look at his face for the last time. Everyone has a sad face. After everything has done, I went straight home. I dont cry there. But at home, I feel very sad because I have lost a friend. It's a sad thing. And it is difficult to find the replacement of you.
To a friend who love to bully me without fail, we will be always pray hard so that you will be found.
Well, early in the morning I receive a message. And I read twice but I still dont get it and who is the person in the text that they mean. After read it several times, that I get it . And I reply whether its true or not. So, Nazif told me to read Straits Time or BH. I go to shop and buy. Well, it is a sad story. The last time I met Sakai (Nazim) was the wedding. And that was the last time he didnt bully me. I really wish that he will be found alive. All of us will pray hard. And all of us will be sad and miss you. Although you always bully me until I cry. You bit me using umbrella but I, as a friend will be always pray hard that you will be found alive. May Allah will be so kind towards us to give you back to us who need you.
